Are you standing outside the grave mourning the loss of your dream? I was there, devastated by the loss of faithfulness in my marriage. My dream of a happy, fairy tale marriage was dead. Just like Martha standing outside of Lazarus' tomb all looks lost. Until.... Jesus walks in. The Resurrected Lord stands by our... Continue Reading →
Does Time Work For You?
You have heard the saying "Time heals all wounds." After the realization that my spouse had an affair, time was a thing to endure. Time was filled with raw pain and agony that stretched for days and months. Tears that never seemed to stop flowing. The first year afterward will be a time of grieving.... Continue Reading →
Embracing the Other Woman, a Testimony
I had imagined it many times. Played out the scenario over and over and in various ways. Sometimes my fist hit her in the face. Sometimes I fired angry accusations and questions of why? Sometimes I imagined hugging her and crying, but then sitting her down to talk things out. I always judged her in... Continue Reading →
Wrestling with God
I came from a household that regularly wrestled with each other. There was lots of tickling wars, piggie back rides, stealing my dad's socks off his feet, and hanging on dad's legs to try and bring him down during a wrestling match. Later on in my teens my brother and I took karate and... Continue Reading →
Love is Grace
I only dated one guy before dating my husband. Though I enjoyed the attention and was attracted to him I never felt the feelings of love. My distress grew as one night after dating for about a month, he told me he loved me and wanted to know if I loved him. I wanted... Continue Reading →
When Will The Tears Stop?
Tears. They can be such a blessed relief and comfort sometimes, but they can also feel never ending. When I first learned about my husband’s affair I strangely couldn’t cry very much. I wanted to but it just wouldn’t come. Slowly, as processing happened they did start to flow and I was able to grieve... Continue Reading →
Breaking the Ice After Confession
This past Christmas break my husband and I went to the mountains for a day hike. At 19 degrees with steady falling snow, our hike was extra challenging, but beautiful. The second trail we took lead us to a very long and narrow waterfall. We edged our way down to get beside the varying levels... Continue Reading →
Christmas Blues
The people walking in darkness have seen a great light; a light has dawned on those living in the land of darkness. Isaiah 9:2 I am thankful for Christmas this year in a new town, new house, different experience. But this holiday season is still sprinkled with reminders and anniversaries of the affair. It... Continue Reading →
He is Still God
Be Still and Know that I am God... Isaiah 46:10 Nothing caused my world to stop so suddenly as my husband’s confession to an affair this summer. In that moment everything seemed to pause and life as I knew it changed. I wanted to hold on to my “bubble” as I call it. The bubble... Continue Reading →