If you learn your spouse is having an affair and you decide to stay and work things out together, there will be a bit of "clean up" that needs to be done. Things have to change. There is an accountability and responsibility for your spouse to be open and honest if there is to be... Continue Reading →
When Will The Tears Stop?
Tears. They can be such a blessed relief and comfort sometimes, but they can also feel never ending. When I first learned about my husband’s affair I strangely couldn’t cry very much. I wanted to but it just wouldn’t come. Slowly, as processing happened they did start to flow and I was able to grieve... Continue Reading →
Idols of Sex
Ever since I was a teenager and understood the purpose of sex in marriage I held it in high regard. I believed it was a gift and something that I only wanted to share with the man I married one day. After going to a True Love Waits seminar which encouraged teens to save sex... Continue Reading →
New Year New Beginnings
Yesterday I finished my last journal entry of 2017. With the busyness of life it can be hard to keep up with journaling about life's events. In the past I haven't done very well with regularly writing, but from the middle of 2016 to now my journal is filled with life's stories. It's filled with... Continue Reading →
Best Books of 2017
I love reading and every year I end up making it through a handful of books. I like novels, true life stories, and Christian growth books. These are my top choices of 2017. “Walk to Beautiful” by Jimmy Wayne. It is the true story of Jimmy Wayne country music star, and his childhood to stardom.... Continue Reading →
Breaking the Ice After Confession
This past Christmas break my husband and I went to the mountains for a day hike. At 19 degrees with steady falling snow, our hike was extra challenging, but beautiful. The second trail we took lead us to a very long and narrow waterfall. We edged our way down to get beside the varying levels... Continue Reading →
Christmas Blues
The people walking in darkness have seen a great light; a light has dawned on those living in the land of darkness. Isaiah 9:2 I am thankful for Christmas this year in a new town, new house, different experience. But this holiday season is still sprinkled with reminders and anniversaries of the affair. It... Continue Reading →
He is Still God
Be Still and Know that I am God... Isaiah 46:10 Nothing caused my world to stop so suddenly as my husband’s confession to an affair this summer. In that moment everything seemed to pause and life as I knew it changed. I wanted to hold on to my “bubble” as I call it. The bubble... Continue Reading →
What Only He Can Do
In the same way the Spirit also comes to help us, weak as we are. For we do not know how we ought to pray; the Spirit himself pleads with God for us in groans that words cannot express. (Romans 8:26) I don't know about you, but right about the time Thanksgiving week hits the... Continue Reading →
Dreams and Unpleasant Reminders
Everything that I have written about so far has been the past memories of my story. I’m going to fast forward a moment to the now. Since my husband’s confession to an affair its been 168 days. God has done a lot in our lives since then. I can remember the early days of having... Continue Reading →